Sunday, June 24, 2007 @ 2:35 PM
A Lousy President's Reflections
Hi all,
It was not a moment of anger that i raised all the issues up. I had already thought of what i was going to do to wake all of you up when i was on my way to school yesterday morning. I felt that there was a need to tell you all this kind of situation really cannot carry on. It is the time to voice out everything you don't like or you would like to do in front of everyone rather than discuss it among individuals.
I had flared up because some of the attitudes that some of you have shown have really gone over the limit. A leader should have a high morale so as to motivate the others. He or she cannot let his or her own feelings take over them because the whole club will be affected by the leader. I am sorry, however i did not mean to pinpoint anyone but it is really hurting for me to see that members are having negative feedback to the conductor at this point of time. You will never know the feeling of being trapped in the middle because on top of me there is instructor and below me is my members. I will see that " oh my god, my members are like that, complaining, then the instructor side will keep telling me your members what and what.." I understand you all have your own ideas and opinions, but you all should really settle everyone down to discuss and come to a conclusion rather than i have this idea and i am asking everyone and the instructor whether it can be accepted. Members accept your idea but may not be totally agree on the way how to implement the idea but thought of improvising the idea, then there is a confusion because everyone have different ideas but same concept. And this concept is normally raised and discussed till nowhere.
I know all of you are committed members that you all do come for practices and participate in the preparation of Rhymonia. I really appreciate that the club has committed members that are willing to contribute. But there is this serious punctuality problem with some of you. I do not know why for every practice some of you will definitely be late without informing me. If you do have something on, please inform me one day earlier or in the morning so that i can have the picture of how i am going to carry out things later in practices depending on the amount of people. Because for now, i do not know who will come late or coming for practices and it is very hard to do things with little members. And it is the same few people who are always there early and have to do all the things like carrying equipment and preparing equipment for those who are coming late. I feel that it is unfair for them to come early and do the things all by themselves but for those who come late, they do not have to do anything because everything has already been prepared nicely for them to use. I understand you all have your own things to do but from what i see why is it that every practice, it is always the same few people who are early and the same few people who are late. I have to really tell you all that the feeling of waiting is very terrible because you don't know whether how late will all members be ready and whether they are coming or not. Normally, this kind of feeling leads to no anticipation for practices because you wait and wait for 1 or 2 hours, all the motivation is lost.
Practices are not going to be enjoyable because it is really hard work that everyone has to put in. There is only 2 weeks left and there is really no more time left for being late and starting late. Starting late will only lead to going home late which everyone does not want. I totally understand you all just want to come here and practice then leave on time. But how do you expect me to release early when majority of the members are coming in late? I also do want to go home early, i only get to see my parents once a week only on sundays and it is the day where i have to go down to help them at the hawker centre do i get to see them. The other days it's either school or cca, out early back late. I do not complain about that because i know my members will come, this performance will go on. But sometimes i really doubt whether do they care for the people who are always doing the jobs and do they feel guilty that they have did little? I have to really say that some members are really very good, they come early, do things willingly. Xing tong fell out of the buggy while trying to get the timpani up, kaka is sick and feels dizzy but she still comes, zhen hui and james got off the plane one night before the practice but still come, all the other graduates come after their work and studies. What is their motivation for them to come? It's us! We ourselves! I know some of you are getting sick due to the recent weather but you all still try to come. Why? Because you all do care for the club but is the way of you all showing care correct or do you really care? I know all of you are stressed but can't we just make the practices be enjoyable, come early, practice hard, have fun, go home happily?
I always question myself whether i am a good president or not. Maybe i am not because i cannot get members to come punctually for practices although i have already told them so many times. Maybe i am not a good president because members are having negative comments about the practices and how things are done. May be i am not a good president because members look up to me only as a friend and not a leader. I am not a good president because members are quitting the club like linghui and dong yang. I once told suyin a good member may not be a good leader, she said she chose me as the president because i had the passion, but somehow after becoming the president, the passion will turn into hate. Am i not really doing not enough or doing it all wrongly? I really do not know, please tell me.
I hereby apologize to all members for reprimanding you all yesterday. If you think that i was rude to you or whatever, i am sorry.For those who have any comments, feel free to email me or sms me. Thanks to the graduates for stepping out and solving the problems and comforting everyone.
Labels: i really do not know how to go on...
Sunday, June 24, 2007 @ 2:35 PM
A Lousy President's Reflections
Hi all,
It was not a moment of anger that i raised all the issues up. I had already thought of what i was going to do to wake all of you up when i was on my way to school yesterday morning. I felt that there was a need to tell you all this kind of situation really cannot carry on. It is the time to voice out everything you don't like or you would like to do in front of everyone rather than discuss it among individuals.
I had flared up because some of the attitudes that some of you have shown have really gone over the limit. A leader should have a high morale so as to motivate the others. He or she cannot let his or her own feelings take over them because the whole club will be affected by the leader. I am sorry, however i did not mean to pinpoint anyone but it is really hurting for me to see that members are having negative feedback to the conductor at this point of time. You will never know the feeling of being trapped in the middle because on top of me there is instructor and below me is my members. I will see that " oh my god, my members are like that, complaining, then the instructor side will keep telling me your members what and what.." I understand you all have your own ideas and opinions, but you all should really settle everyone down to discuss and come to a conclusion rather than i have this idea and i am asking everyone and the instructor whether it can be accepted. Members accept your idea but may not be totally agree on the way how to implement the idea but thought of improvising the idea, then there is a confusion because everyone have different ideas but same concept. And this concept is normally raised and discussed till nowhere.
I know all of you are committed members that you all do come for practices and participate in the preparation of Rhymonia. I really appreciate that the club has committed members that are willing to contribute. But there is this serious punctuality problem with some of you. I do not know why for every practice some of you will definitely be late without informing me. If you do have something on, please inform me one day earlier or in the morning so that i can have the picture of how i am going to carry out things later in practices depending on the amount of people. Because for now, i do not know who will come late or coming for practices and it is very hard to do things with little members. And it is the same few people who are always there early and have to do all the things like carrying equipment and preparing equipment for those who are coming late. I feel that it is unfair for them to come early and do the things all by themselves but for those who come late, they do not have to do anything because everything has already been prepared nicely for them to use. I understand you all have your own things to do but from what i see why is it that every practice, it is always the same few people who are early and the same few people who are late. I have to really tell you all that the feeling of waiting is very terrible because you don't know whether how late will all members be ready and whether they are coming or not. Normally, this kind of feeling leads to no anticipation for practices because you wait and wait for 1 or 2 hours, all the motivation is lost.
Practices are not going to be enjoyable because it is really hard work that everyone has to put in. There is only 2 weeks left and there is really no more time left for being late and starting late. Starting late will only lead to going home late which everyone does not want. I totally understand you all just want to come here and practice then leave on time. But how do you expect me to release early when majority of the members are coming in late? I also do want to go home early, i only get to see my parents once a week only on sundays and it is the day where i have to go down to help them at the hawker centre do i get to see them. The other days it's either school or cca, out early back late. I do not complain about that because i know my members will come, this performance will go on. But sometimes i really doubt whether do they care for the people who are always doing the jobs and do they feel guilty that they have did little? I have to really say that some members are really very good, they come early, do things willingly. Xing tong fell out of the buggy while trying to get the timpani up, kaka is sick and feels dizzy but she still comes, zhen hui and james got off the plane one night before the practice but still come, all the other graduates come after their work and studies. What is their motivation for them to come? It's us! We ourselves! I know some of you are getting sick due to the recent weather but you all still try to come. Why? Because you all do care for the club but is the way of you all showing care correct or do you really care? I know all of you are stressed but can't we just make the practices be enjoyable, come early, practice hard, have fun, go home happily?
I always question myself whether i am a good president or not. Maybe i am not because i cannot get members to come punctually for practices although i have already told them so many times. Maybe i am not a good president because members are having negative comments about the practices and how things are done. May be i am not a good president because members look up to me only as a friend and not a leader. I am not a good president because members are quitting the club like linghui and dong yang. I once told suyin a good member may not be a good leader, she said she chose me as the president because i had the passion, but somehow after becoming the president, the passion will turn into hate. Am i not really doing not enough or doing it all wrongly? I really do not know, please tell me.
I hereby apologize to all members for reprimanding you all yesterday. If you think that i was rude to you or whatever, i am sorry.For those who have any comments, feel free to email me or sms me. Thanks to the graduates for stepping out and solving the problems and comforting everyone.
Labels: i really do not know how to go on...
